I'm a mess to put it simply
I know 100% I'm not straight but at the same time, girls can be the only thing on my mind sometimes but even then I get the good old gender dysphoria killing me, and I don't tell any of my irl friends and the ones that know I'm queer only know but and pieces because I feel like if I spilled it all out I'd come across as a attention seeking (I feel gross using this word but it's how I can feel) fag and I don't know why I'm putting this on a online forum where people can see it but I am, just, please don't judge me on this ok? I know I'm gross and confusing and confused but I guess that's part of my personality. A mess