Earth, pebbles, dust and dirt, a cloak, a shroud that obscured the eye and irritated the light as it shone on the reign of terror the still air commanded, stifling the dirt's flow as it tried again to settle to the floor. The boy huffed at the dirt's futility as it struggled to settle, a task that seemed simple, to be completed in a finite amount of time, and yet never appeared to be able to finish, trying to struggle out of the trap of infinity. Facts told the boy that with enough peace it would settle in time. For now, it was confused. Thinking its finite struggle was infinite, never to be completed.
Huh.
The boy emerged from the tomb of a den, following closely the girl as he tried to think about her words, brain spent on petty observations. He felt fatigued, the world shifting in and out of focus, sweat tainting his ghostly skin and mutating it to a pallid, pearly, rusty red, as if frost had permeated within it and burned it with its frozen teeth. And yet he was hot, so hot. His palms were clammy, his forehead a paste as particles of dirt clung to the sweaty skin, and the world slipped in and out of existence.
He started, flicking his head towards the girl, body registering the name before his mind did in an instant reaction, feeling a rush of cold blood cloak his neck as if worry had swarmed his brain in the absence of surprise. Air, dreary and tired, wrapped around his wrists as if trying to wipe away the heat that radiated from it. Que had a vague feeling that something was wrong, and he uneasily looked away from the girl, forgetting to process the question before he responded.
''Yeah. When'd I tell you?''
Curiosity was absent from the question, dull and reactive from his first instinct. For a moment, he thought on the subject, realizing vaguely that he couldn't actually process his memories. Had he always been in these caverns, always walking, always fatigued, cold and hot all at once, silence a shadow tearing at his footsteps? He couldn't remember past the last day, the last hour. He was tired. He wanted to go to sleep.
The boy found he was walking with the girl, through the darkness, through the caves. His arm hurt. It hurt bad, like a poison in his skin. He rarely felt pain. Rarely went outside, rarely ran, never played. His skin was eerily pale, void of any oddities, no bruise, no freckle, not even a scratch. He hadn't felt pain before. He didn't understand how it hurt, how it tore at him, how it barraged him, how it poisoned him, how it constantly raked at his mind. He just wanted the distraction.
And oh, did the boy love it. And oh, did the boy hate it. As he walked, the world vanished into a void, a limitless nothing forever, and sweat padded his skin like a sponge. But then his arm wrenched the vision from his eyes in a spout of agony and the world was clear again, the air was cold, gravity chained him to the smooth floor and he ran his arm across the wall with an addictive urgency, feeling its smooth, perfect touch, the coolness of the ancient stone caressing his skin. And then the girl vanished and he was alone and he was dead but the pain tore away the false reality and replaced it with another, one that hurt, one where he felt alive. And Que was addicted to life as much as he was addicted to death, because he hated pain and he never wanted to be alone.
She'd called him a monster.
Had she?
Or was he possessed by a demon that she thought he wouldn't fight, some sort of... thing, some thought, some vision. No, she was saying something else, some conversation he hadn't been there for, couldn't remember, couldn't understand. He'd give her an answer anyways. Her serrated gaze overpowered him, slit through his soul until he felt cold at her sight and he shivered beneath an answer he didn't want to understand.
''If I'm trapped by this... monster, if it's trying to steal me away- If that's true, then what? I can't fight what I don't understand.''
The cool subterranean air clawed at his limbs, chains that tore him towards the floor. His slouch deepened. He swayed, feverish and confused, walking as if the earth were pushing him on, speaking words that were far away. The watcher shivered at the steely eyed form's shoulder, feeling himself being repulsed again and again by the fevered form, terror gripping near his chest until he couldn't control himself and he reached to become a part of the creature that was a wretched void. And it hurt, and it hurt, and puzzle piece emotions clung to his skin and tore him away.
''Everything changes-,'' the boy stated simply, as if such a fact would explain everything he had stated before, why he didn't fight a monster he didn't understand. His voice declared he didn't care, monotonous and simple, but his face was skewed, his forehead drenched, his thin lips parted in a whisper that was simultaneously loud and nonexistent, raging at the silence while being destroyed by it. He slowed his pace, hand clasping the cool rock wall almost as if he were leaning into the cold embrace.
''I don't want to.''
And his voice was as silent as a cold winter breath, pained and afraid.
He paused. He stopped walking, moving. He didn't want to walk he didn't want to move he never wanted to leave the spot in which he stood, hand against the wall, addicted to its cool touch, frosty and serpentine. He didn't care that the girl walked on, he didn't care that he had trapped himself in these caverns of the dreadful truth, he didn't care, he didn't care as long as he never moved, a statue of the constant present. He'd pretend he could stop time, and it would work. He didn't want to walk and he didn't want to move and he didn't care that the silence pressed against his chest and choked him, wrapped around his ghostly face and pulled the breath from his lips, closed his eyes, numbed his tongue from all taste into a sans that would stop everything forever.
His heartbeat writhed against his ears.
His arms burned with an itching agony, like the fire itself had dug its rotting teeth into his arm, sharply pointed incisors bleeding puss into the pallid flesh.
The girl walked on.
Had she walked on?
The girl walked on.
Darkness enveloped the earth like a cloak of solitude, silky and cold, pressing noise into the abyss of a void. And he told himself he wanted peace and he told himself he wanted nothing to ever change and he wanted to stay still forever, but forever was never and his arm bled with agony and the girl disappeared into folds of darkness like she had never existed at all. He reminded himself he hated standing still, hated it with every fiber of his being, as much as he hated the world changing, and yet he couldn't seem to remember why. He ran after her not with the knowledge of the pain of the nothing he mistook as everything but with a primeval terror, a strain of poison in his bones that caused his heart to race into his ears and the silence to cut and tear him to pieces every time he dared to draw a breath.
''If we're going to revert back to the formalities, then hello. My name is Que, and yours is Cassie.''
It was always easier to run away.
A stupid strategy, the Dedenne considered. Better to fight with every fiber, to live existence to stop the looming terror that wrenched at her shoulders and made her muscles fall weak. She twitched her tail impulsively, she counted in her head, she pondered without pondering and cleaned her fur until she tugged it out. And then the rodent found a bout of relief and she pulled more fur from her tailbone, nipping it off with her teeth, anxiety causing her to shiver uncontrollably, sure that if she just did everything a religious five times than it would all be alright. Everyone would return. Everyone would return forever. It was up to her, all up to her. She controlled fate. She couldn't make a single mistake.
There was only one explanation for all of this. For the nightmarish memory, for the cascade of terror, for event after terrible event on this horrid day. Or night. Or whatever it was. It must be a pre-Tuesday, the Dedenne decided - as in, Sunday, pre-Tuesday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. The day of bad luck and demons and hate. Yes, it was the demon day, the day of all her troubles, where agony tagged at her tail and emptiness clung to her chest. Such was its demonic tendency that the Dedenne refused to even call the day by its name, as if it held bad luck just to state the word. She was a superstitious being. She wouldn't say the name of the second twelve, let alone dare to breath of pre-tuesday.
Maybe this would all be fixed if she skipped to Tuesday. Yes, that was it.
The Dedenne ripped a few more shreds of fur from her tailbone and then skittered off of the boy's shoulder, wriggling between the zippers of his backpack into the dank, calming darkness beneath the folds of cloth. She circled a spot five times, twitched her ears, tail, and nose, cleaned her body and circled the spot again before falling asleep.
And silence was a void above it all, a serrated icicle in a frosted world. Que slouched further, not because he felt curious nor heavy nor sad, but because he felt weak, tired and faint. The world passed in and out of his eyes and pain allowed it to travel, the payment for the ticket gate to flee the bridge of insanity. He swayed on the verge of delirium, grabbing his left wrist, radiating clammy heat and sweating more than he'd ever sweat before until the paste of hair upon his skull was sticky with the salty liquid paste. Again, the boy felt that something was wrong, and this time he knew it with a surge of anxiety in his chest.
Footsteps scattered his feelings and thoughts, and silence evaporated them into its void. The world was a pearl in the mouth of a clam, singing a song of hatred and terror with its core of debri and its skin of pretty gems. Que touched the wall again and praised its frozen demeanor as it seeped the heat out of his feverish skin.
He walked, the world pushing him forwards.
Huh.
The boy emerged from the tomb of a den, following closely the girl as he tried to think about her words, brain spent on petty observations. He felt fatigued, the world shifting in and out of focus, sweat tainting his ghostly skin and mutating it to a pallid, pearly, rusty red, as if frost had permeated within it and burned it with its frozen teeth. And yet he was hot, so hot. His palms were clammy, his forehead a paste as particles of dirt clung to the sweaty skin, and the world slipped in and out of existence.
He started, flicking his head towards the girl, body registering the name before his mind did in an instant reaction, feeling a rush of cold blood cloak his neck as if worry had swarmed his brain in the absence of surprise. Air, dreary and tired, wrapped around his wrists as if trying to wipe away the heat that radiated from it. Que had a vague feeling that something was wrong, and he uneasily looked away from the girl, forgetting to process the question before he responded.
''Yeah. When'd I tell you?''
Curiosity was absent from the question, dull and reactive from his first instinct. For a moment, he thought on the subject, realizing vaguely that he couldn't actually process his memories. Had he always been in these caverns, always walking, always fatigued, cold and hot all at once, silence a shadow tearing at his footsteps? He couldn't remember past the last day, the last hour. He was tired. He wanted to go to sleep.
The boy found he was walking with the girl, through the darkness, through the caves. His arm hurt. It hurt bad, like a poison in his skin. He rarely felt pain. Rarely went outside, rarely ran, never played. His skin was eerily pale, void of any oddities, no bruise, no freckle, not even a scratch. He hadn't felt pain before. He didn't understand how it hurt, how it tore at him, how it barraged him, how it poisoned him, how it constantly raked at his mind. He just wanted the distraction.
And oh, did the boy love it. And oh, did the boy hate it. As he walked, the world vanished into a void, a limitless nothing forever, and sweat padded his skin like a sponge. But then his arm wrenched the vision from his eyes in a spout of agony and the world was clear again, the air was cold, gravity chained him to the smooth floor and he ran his arm across the wall with an addictive urgency, feeling its smooth, perfect touch, the coolness of the ancient stone caressing his skin. And then the girl vanished and he was alone and he was dead but the pain tore away the false reality and replaced it with another, one that hurt, one where he felt alive. And Que was addicted to life as much as he was addicted to death, because he hated pain and he never wanted to be alone.
She'd called him a monster.
Had she?
Or was he possessed by a demon that she thought he wouldn't fight, some sort of... thing, some thought, some vision. No, she was saying something else, some conversation he hadn't been there for, couldn't remember, couldn't understand. He'd give her an answer anyways. Her serrated gaze overpowered him, slit through his soul until he felt cold at her sight and he shivered beneath an answer he didn't want to understand.
''If I'm trapped by this... monster, if it's trying to steal me away- If that's true, then what? I can't fight what I don't understand.''
The cool subterranean air clawed at his limbs, chains that tore him towards the floor. His slouch deepened. He swayed, feverish and confused, walking as if the earth were pushing him on, speaking words that were far away. The watcher shivered at the steely eyed form's shoulder, feeling himself being repulsed again and again by the fevered form, terror gripping near his chest until he couldn't control himself and he reached to become a part of the creature that was a wretched void. And it hurt, and it hurt, and puzzle piece emotions clung to his skin and tore him away.
''Everything changes-,'' the boy stated simply, as if such a fact would explain everything he had stated before, why he didn't fight a monster he didn't understand. His voice declared he didn't care, monotonous and simple, but his face was skewed, his forehead drenched, his thin lips parted in a whisper that was simultaneously loud and nonexistent, raging at the silence while being destroyed by it. He slowed his pace, hand clasping the cool rock wall almost as if he were leaning into the cold embrace.
''I don't want to.''
And his voice was as silent as a cold winter breath, pained and afraid.
He paused. He stopped walking, moving. He didn't want to walk he didn't want to move he never wanted to leave the spot in which he stood, hand against the wall, addicted to its cool touch, frosty and serpentine. He didn't care that the girl walked on, he didn't care that he had trapped himself in these caverns of the dreadful truth, he didn't care, he didn't care as long as he never moved, a statue of the constant present. He'd pretend he could stop time, and it would work. He didn't want to walk and he didn't want to move and he didn't care that the silence pressed against his chest and choked him, wrapped around his ghostly face and pulled the breath from his lips, closed his eyes, numbed his tongue from all taste into a sans that would stop everything forever.
His heartbeat writhed against his ears.
His arms burned with an itching agony, like the fire itself had dug its rotting teeth into his arm, sharply pointed incisors bleeding puss into the pallid flesh.
The girl walked on.
Had she walked on?
The girl walked on.
Darkness enveloped the earth like a cloak of solitude, silky and cold, pressing noise into the abyss of a void. And he told himself he wanted peace and he told himself he wanted nothing to ever change and he wanted to stay still forever, but forever was never and his arm bled with agony and the girl disappeared into folds of darkness like she had never existed at all. He reminded himself he hated standing still, hated it with every fiber of his being, as much as he hated the world changing, and yet he couldn't seem to remember why. He ran after her not with the knowledge of the pain of the nothing he mistook as everything but with a primeval terror, a strain of poison in his bones that caused his heart to race into his ears and the silence to cut and tear him to pieces every time he dared to draw a breath.
''If we're going to revert back to the formalities, then hello. My name is Que, and yours is Cassie.''
It was always easier to run away.
A stupid strategy, the Dedenne considered. Better to fight with every fiber, to live existence to stop the looming terror that wrenched at her shoulders and made her muscles fall weak. She twitched her tail impulsively, she counted in her head, she pondered without pondering and cleaned her fur until she tugged it out. And then the rodent found a bout of relief and she pulled more fur from her tailbone, nipping it off with her teeth, anxiety causing her to shiver uncontrollably, sure that if she just did everything a religious five times than it would all be alright. Everyone would return. Everyone would return forever. It was up to her, all up to her. She controlled fate. She couldn't make a single mistake.
There was only one explanation for all of this. For the nightmarish memory, for the cascade of terror, for event after terrible event on this horrid day. Or night. Or whatever it was. It must be a pre-Tuesday, the Dedenne decided - as in, Sunday, pre-Tuesday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. The day of bad luck and demons and hate. Yes, it was the demon day, the day of all her troubles, where agony tagged at her tail and emptiness clung to her chest. Such was its demonic tendency that the Dedenne refused to even call the day by its name, as if it held bad luck just to state the word. She was a superstitious being. She wouldn't say the name of the second twelve, let alone dare to breath of pre-tuesday.
Maybe this would all be fixed if she skipped to Tuesday. Yes, that was it.
The Dedenne ripped a few more shreds of fur from her tailbone and then skittered off of the boy's shoulder, wriggling between the zippers of his backpack into the dank, calming darkness beneath the folds of cloth. She circled a spot five times, twitched her ears, tail, and nose, cleaned her body and circled the spot again before falling asleep.
And silence was a void above it all, a serrated icicle in a frosted world. Que slouched further, not because he felt curious nor heavy nor sad, but because he felt weak, tired and faint. The world passed in and out of his eyes and pain allowed it to travel, the payment for the ticket gate to flee the bridge of insanity. He swayed on the verge of delirium, grabbing his left wrist, radiating clammy heat and sweating more than he'd ever sweat before until the paste of hair upon his skull was sticky with the salty liquid paste. Again, the boy felt that something was wrong, and this time he knew it with a surge of anxiety in his chest.
Footsteps scattered his feelings and thoughts, and silence evaporated them into its void. The world was a pearl in the mouth of a clam, singing a song of hatred and terror with its core of debri and its skin of pretty gems. Que touched the wall again and praised its frozen demeanor as it seeped the heat out of his feverish skin.
He walked, the world pushing him forwards.